No!! I’m not talking about the number of years you’ve lived on earth. I’m talking about the number of years you have been in Christ.
Months ago, I was thinking about how I’m turning 22 at the end of the year and how I have to start getting used to this adulting thing. 22 isn’t child’s play you know! I can’t say I’m 22 and still be sucking milk from my mum’s breast or expecting her to feed me. As I was thinking this, God made me realize that the same applies to my Spiritual age. I cannot be 23 years strong in the Lord and still be feeding on milk, whining every time there’s a challenge like a baby or rebelling like a teenager. I should act like the youth that I am.
When I was an infant at my mother’s breast, I gurgled and cooed like any infant. When I grew up, I left those infant ways for good. (1 Corinthians 13:11 MSG)
Cornelius Lindsey said something similar when he came to Nigeria in February. He stated that growing up is mandatory but maturity is optional. There are old fools just as there are old men so full of wisdom. It’s the exact same thing with your spiritual life. You can be 32 years old and a 2 years old is more mature than you.
Sometimes I just sit and marvel at how some Christians grow so much and do so much in just the 3-5 years they have been in Christ. Their growth is evident. On the other hand, I know some Christians that are sad because they are not growing as fast. DO NOT LET ANYONE GUILT TRIP YOU INTO THINKING YOU’RE GROWING TOO SLOW OR TOO FAST. We are all working out our salvation with fear and trembling. Only those that are led by the Spirit are the sons of God. If the Spirit is not leading you to do a certain thing, it is not your business to be doing it and if the Spirit tells you to partake in a certain thing, please feel free to enter into the thing in style.
One last thing, I’ve realized that the longer you stay in Christ, the more likely you feel like one of the 99 that God left behind when He was going in search of the one. I felt this way really recently and it’s a really terrible feeling. I felt like God had seen me finish and was no longer excited that I was no longer of the world and basically He did not care much. This left me overwhelmed. I couldn’t read my bible as I couldn’t concentrate. I even avoided church because my mind kept wandering so what was the point? All I could do was play worship music non-stop. That was the piece of thread that kept me connected to God.
God’s loyal love couldn’t have run out,
his merciful love couldn’t have dried up.
They’re created new every morning.
How great your faithfulness!
I’m sticking with God (I say it over and over).
He’s all I’ve got left.
Lamentations 3:22-24 (MSG)
The popular hymn that has the verse above played one morning as I was jamming and I realized that feeling like God did not love me was a lie from the devil. The plot twist about God leaving the 99 to find the one that got missing is that God is omnipresent. He is everywhere at the same time. Yes, it is important to Him and He is joyful when a new person is added to the believers family but He will never leave you nor forsake you. Each day, we carry our crosses or die to self and it excites God all over again. You are loved my darling. You are so loved. Do not let the devil tell you otherwise.
Be strong. Take courage. Don’t be intimidated. Don’t give them a second thought because God, your God, is striding ahead of you. He’s right there with you. He won’t let you down; he won’t leave you. Deuteronomy 31:6 MSG
So now I live with the confidence that there is nothing in the universe with the power to separate us from God’s love. I’m convinced that his love will triumph over death, life’s troubles,[a] fallen angels, or dark rulers in the heavens. There is nothing in our present or future circumstances that can weaken his love. There is no power above us or beneath us—no power that could ever be found in the universe that can distance us from God’s passionate love, which is lavished upon us through our Lord Jesus, the Anointed One! Romans 8:38-39 The Passion Translation
The way to get out of feeling this way is to go to God in prayer. Just tell Him how you feel. He will speak back to you. William McDowell’s “Falling on my knees“ and the “What a friend we have in Jesus” Hymn could not have said it better. Suicide is not the answer guys. Go to God is prayer.
The lyrics to William McDowell’s song are below
Falling on my knees,
[ x6 ]
Something’s I can’t see,
until I bow,
[ x4 ]
I can see clearly now
Here on my knees
[ x3 ]
I understand better
Here on my knees
[ x4 ]
I’ll put the lyrics to the “Steadfast Love of the Lord Never Ceases” and “What a friend we have in Jesus” Hymns in another post.
That’s all for now. Byeee!