Guard your heart above all else, for it determines the course of your life (Proverbs 4:23).

Hii guys!! Long time no conversation. I went for nysc orientation camp (a compulsory one year national youth service for Nigerians after university) in May that’s why I disappeared and then I’ve just been lazy and unconnected to the Source since I got back so I stayed away. As I promised, I’m going to be vulnerable today and tell you about a struggle I recently struggled with 😏😏. 

I’m not one who’s up to date with the latest songs or movies, which is very helpful as I was going off secular music but then as I’m driving or basically living my life trying to be right before God, this catchy, worldly song comes up and refuses to leave my head. Being discerning with music is a struggle for me basically. The recent terror in my head was Ed Sheeran’s shape of you. You guys I fell in love with that song and listened to it everyday, seven days a week. It didn’t help that in camp it was played a lot as well. I don’t download songs until I’m really feeling them and I downloaded this song. The love was really intense. I felt guilty though, I won’t lie. I thought about coming on here and letting it feature as the song of the week but then that in no way edifies anyone or shines any light. I imagined how Jesus would feel if He followed me on twitter and saw me tweeting the lyrics of shape of you. Would he retweet? I think not!! That’s when I decided to seek help from Him. You guys, God is amazing!!! This last week, four things I listened to/watched addressed the issue of our humanity. The thing is we are still human. This morning, as I was reading a book, the purpose driven life, I saw a portion about admitting our limitations. Admitting that we’re human and we don’t have it all figured out. Admitting that sometimes we don’t know what to do and we need guidance. It’s so hard to do that when we’re Christians because we set a high standard for ourselves. The truth is we are hated because we are in this world and not of this world and any slip up, we become the next hot topic on news blogs. Also, because we are humans, some of us set low standards for ourselves. You know these ones by their excuse that sounds like a broken record – the famous “we’re still humans and not perfect anyways”. Revivals are killed by our humanity. Either we think too much of it or not enough or it. The remedy however is seeing ourselves as God sees us – humans that are able to do all things through Him who strengthens us. God knows we are weak but He strengthens us to do all things. And yes, it’s only through God we can do all things. So, our humanity does not make us weak as long as we have God and also we are not able to do it all UNTIL we have God that strengthens us. We need to keep remembering that in Him we live, we move and we have our being.

Back to the music issue, I began rationalizing if listening to secular music was okay as long as it didn’t affect my thought process. Fortunately or unfortunately, I saw a picture of Jay z’s new album on a pastor’s instastory and I used that to justify myself. From justifying myself about listening to secular music, I moved on to justifying wearing inappropriate clothing and condoning swear words, compromising in relationships and basically going against some of my values. It was then I knew I needed a check and went back to the word of God, reading the book of acts (i like this book because it gives the account of the early church which is the account of most of us after accepting Jesus. We’re so gingered at first and then the fire burns out and we’re no longer hot for God. It’s a good book to read when you feel like you’re losing the fire). Later on, my friend sent me a message by Apostle Selman that can be downloaded here. The message is titled “Why revivals die?”. It talks about how our humanity kills revivals. I also stumbled across the Heather Lindsey show episode that talked about music and tv shows and how they unconsciously affect us. You can watch it below. 

I thought that the line – “everyday discovering something brand new” was actually “every woman’s covered in something brand new” and it made me wonder what my smell was and wanted me to get a smell that’s unique to me. Thankfully it wasn’t anything major that it made me do. The song in general though is a very lustful one. Also, watching too many kissing scenes in movies made me wonder if my decision here was me being extreme. I knew it was not something the devil told me to do, I knew it was not something I wanted to do myself because I daydream about kissing my boo. It was something God wanted/or something I wanted to do to give glory to God. During a recent Bible study, i realized that what God wanted in the old testament is what God wanted in the new testament and still wants now. He wants us to be pure without blemish. I saw a quote in twitter that purity is not abstaining from sex, but being focused on God. I want everything that concerns me to be focused on God and that’s why the decision was made. The Bible verse that says guard your heart is truly a good one. 

Jackie Hill Perry did a talk or preaching on spiritual warfare that I watched and she hit some key points. She talked about how the devil is not at war with God because Jesus defeated him a long time ago but the devil is warring with God by messing with our faith.  We wrestle not against flesh and blood but against principalities and powers. She used Adam and Eve as a case study. The devil uses our humanity to mess with us. He presents a version of the Scripture to us but because our faith in God is weak, we don’t realize the verse was taken out of context. Faith is the only weapon of defense in the armor of God therefore we should work out our faith with fear and trembling (2 Corinthians 13:10). You really should watch the video. 

Lastly, I saw a thread on twitter about music. You can read it here. I’ve been obsessed with twitter of late. So many young people sold out to Christ. God is indeed doing wonders with our generation. Have an amazing week guys and pray for our generation. I love you, but God loves you more. 

And it is impossible to please God without faith. Anyone who wants to come to him must believe that God exists and that he rewards those who sincerely seek him (Hebrews 11:6).

I’ll leave you with another episode of the Heather Lindsey show. You can watch more episodes on her youtube channel.


Confessions of a Christian Chick

“Before I formed you in the womb I knew [and] approved of you [as My chosen instrument], and before you were born I separated and set you apart, consecrating you; [and] I appointed you as a prophet to the nations.” Jeremiah 1:5 (AMPC)

Heyyy best friends!! It’s been a while I know and I’m so sorry about that. At first I was really busy but then I just became lazy. Happy New Month!!!! A number of people told me I’m too coded in this April that passed (although I think I’m an open book). I was voted most likely to elope with bae by my friends, because of my coded ways they say (although, I think someone capable of eloping has to be adventurous, not so much coded) so I decided to start this new segment on the blog. For every time I’m away for more than one week, I have to return with a confession. Introduce something new myself since apparently no one truly knows me 😒😒. Let’s start today’s gist shall we? 


This is not a commandment in the Bible because I can see how some of you are already bringing out your Bibles for me to point out the book, chapter and verse so I repeat, this is not a commandment in the Bible. The Bible however does say to not fornicate and to flee from all appearances of evil and when God tells me to flee, being the drama queen that I am, I pick race. Also, Cornelius Lindsey said God told him not to kiss his wife until their wedding day because she was not his yet and that made so much sense to me. My boyfriend is not mine yet until we’re married. The Bible even says in 1st Corinthians 7 that it’s not permissible for a husband to deny his wife of his body as the husband has authority over the wife’s body and vice versa so I know that I own him after marriage *evil laugh*. Before marriage however, there is nothing of the such. Its possible that I date someone and end up not marrying him so he’s not really mine. You don’t just go to a car dealer, pick up the keys to a car and drive it home that it’s yours. You have to pay for it and even if you say but you can test drive, remember that once you hit it, dent it, scratch it, you pay for it as well. You can’t eat your cake and have it. 

A while ago, I went to visit my friend who wanted to see me and on getting there, he started to tell me how he had feelings for me. There was nothing wrong with that but I told him I didn’t feel the same way and that’s how my guy nau wanted to kiss me saying kissing makes people see things differently. Now I don’t know about you, but marriage is a forever business and I won’t want to enter into it eyes closed. My friend explained to me how this (kissing making people see things differently) happens but I wasn’t really listening, I was in shock. My eyes were wide open and my brain was functioning perfectly when I said I did not feel the same way about him so why would kissing change anything? I didn’t sha wait to find out. I don’t want to make decisions with a cloudy mindset. 

The main purpose of a phone is to make and receive calls that’s why no matter what you’re doing on your phone, when a call comes in, there’s a disruption so you either pick the call or ignore it. This does not stop the phone from having other functions. It just recognizes the main purpose as most important or of utmost priority and the others as peripheral. Marriage, in the same way, is first for companionship, to find a helpmate that would help in achieving God’s purpose for your life. God saw that it was not good for Adam to be alone and so He brought Eve. This is the primary reason for marriage. Marriage is first and foremost for companionship and I would want to see if I enjoy the company of my boyfriend without the attractions (distractions)  before I marry him. I want to truly know him, what he stands for and see if we have the same vision in life, basically just enjoy his company so that when I’m pregnant and throwing up and cranky and I might not feel like kissing or touching him, I want to know that I’ll enjoy just being around him. It’s before marriage I’ll check that because marriage is till death do us part. 

Right now, this “not kissing before marriage” is getting really popular but I made the decision when I knew about just Heather and Cornelius Lindsey and I won’t even lie to you that it’s been easy. I don’t have a boyfriend yet and I’ve changed my mind about it a million times so I’m telling you guys (first set of people I’m telling actually) so that you can serve as an accountability group for me. These are some of the reasons my lips are going to lose their virginity on my wedding day. Basically, all the reasons can be summed up into two

1. I want to honor God and put Him first

2. I want to truly know my future hubby before I agree to forever. 

*Bonus reason*

3. It helps in the filtering of guys

So now you know one private thing about me. Tell me one thing about yourself. I’d love to know you better. How do you feel about not kissing till the wedding day? Have you tried it?  Are you trying it?  Or do you know anyone trying it?  I’d love to hear from you. 

Till next time!!