Notes to my younger myself

Hi babygirl,

In life, you have to know what you want but then that is a process so don’t beat yourself up if you don’t know yet.

God is the creator and He knows why He created you so I suggest take some time out to get guidance from Him. It’s something so little yet so key because the truth is His will would always be done so it’s better to know what it is and walk in it instead of going round in circles and still coming back to it.

I know that one is most sensitive to the voice of God during a fast so that would be my advice, even though you might not get the answer immediately. It could take a while. Try the Daniel fast sometime.

While you’re fasting though dabble into different things here and there and find mentors or read about people that have succeeded in the fields you want to go into. God has given you the skill to do all sorts of things.

Don’t be idle!! An idle mind is the devil’s workshop.

Don’t be shy to ask for advice from older people and don’t be scared to work for free too. You’re in the building stage of your life so anything that will add value, please do.

As you’re being sensitive to the Holy Spirit be sensitive to your environment. Look for problems and try to find solutions to them.

Bind and cast the spirit of laziness and procrastination because they are the worst.

If you fail at anything, do not beat yourself up or sulk or mourn. Hurry and get up so that you can try the next thing. A failure is a step closer to a breakthrough. At least you’ve learnt what you should not do or how you should not go about a thing.

Just because you think you like him/her does not mean they’re good for you. Test all likes!!

Don’t rush into things without knowing exactly what you’re getting into.

Do not choose a partner based on how he relates with you friends’ partners. He is probably not God’s choice for you.

Do not think you will marry him just because he loves God. Not every man of God is your husband.

Do not worry, you will eventually meet your husband. Just make sure you have heard properly from God first.

You will never know how to love your partner if you do not love God. You find out that your love for him increases from loving God. I just understood this today so do not beat yourself up if you do not understand.

Never lie to your parents. NEVER!! You will regret it.

“A man can receive nothing unless it is given to him from Heaven” – John 3:27. Everything you have was given to you by God so feel free to ask Him for the user’s manual.

Everything will work out for your good because you love God and are called according to His purpose. Do not forget the reason everything will work out for your good!! You have to love God and walk in the purpose He has for you. Don’t worry if you don’t know your purpose yet, you will eventually (and you will love it). However you only find out from spending time with God.

You will realize that all you’re going to go through is preparing you for your purpose.

Always show love to others Don’t be scared to go above and beyond. Show love even if, in fact, especially if you know it won’t be reciprocated. It is a good feeling.

Read a lot my dear.

Use your time wisely.

Sleep less.

You will have very good taste in music eventually.

Never compromise on your standards, they are not too high.

You must decrease for God to increase. Do not hold on to yourself. What does it profit a man if he gains the whole world but loses his soul.

You will find a church that excites you to go to church on Sundays.

Speak declarations over your life (including your husband and children babycakes). This is what Jesus meant when He said you should have faith as little as a mustard seed. When you speak the words God has revealed to you over your life, you do not fret or have panic attacks (ahh you will have these) when hard times come because you have spoken and believe the word of God concerning you (in other words, you have faith).

You are  fearfully, wonderfully and perfectly made. You will eventually see it. Just wait.

God is worthy to lean on. Trust in the Lord with all you heart and lean not on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge Him and He will direct your path.

You are nothing without God. So do not leave Him.

God’s strength is made known in your weakness. You won’t always have it all figured out or you might not be able to handle all of it. That is when God comes in.

Let your light shine so bright that others see the good work in you and glorify your father in Heaven. This should be your mantra.

Learn to save.

Always give your first fruit to God, not because it is a law, but because you want to. First fruit of your day, income, everything.

You are loved by God, your family, friends, even strangers will love you.

Do not be afraid of man who can kill only body but fear God that can kill both body and soul.

Sometimes you will feel your fire for God burning out, when that happens, come back to read this or anyone of the previous posts or the book of acts.

Drink a lot of water.

Don’t joke with your health.

Never stop improving yourself.

Have a gentle and quiet spirit (Lam 3:27-28).

Don’t let what people say about you get to you, especially if it is not true. Only God’s thoughts towards you matters.

The Holy Spirit is your best friend boo.

Don’t get bored of reading your bible.

Most finally, NEVER STOP LAUGHING!! Life is not that hard.

I love you so much my darling, which is why I am writing this. You’re amazing.


The “Nobody did it for me” syndrome

This is how we know what love is: Jesus Christ laid down his life for us. And we ought to lay down our lives for our brothers and sisters (1 John 3:16).

Hi again!! I’m taking my life and blogging seriously now so I’m trying to be more consistent. I have a schedule and all. Thank master Jesus for giving me wisdom (and thank me for finally accepting it 😌😏). So I have a story for you guys today. 

Story story… Once upon a time, so a new staff joined my department this past week and everyone tried to get him integrated into the system by explaining stuff to him and putting him through anything he had issues with. We’re good people you know 😏. However, when we joined the department, no integration was done for us and so one of the old staff made this famous “nobody did it for me” comment and jokingly said he was done helping the man to integrate, then he took a break. I on the other hand, continued helping this man integrate then had to quickly run an errand and found myself thinking the “nobody did this for me” thought. Not for long though because the Holy Spirit interrupted by telling me that Jesus died for me yet I wasn’t dying for anyone so what did it matter if no one did it for me? Deep stuff!! I was made to understand that daily carrying my cross to follow God, loving Him and loving my neighbors as I love myself, walking in the Spirit, basically doing things that please the father, not the world, is dying everyday. The selfless act of helping the new guy integrate when no one did it for me was doing what Jesus did on the cross for me. 

So you people that have the “nobody did it for me” syndrome and those of you that do not, I’m asking you today. How do you lay your life for others on a daily basis? At least someone did that for you. 

Hope your week started off lovely? Mine started with a bang. The message on Sunday morning was AMAZING!! What did your Pastor preach about on Sunday? Have a great week ahead, God bless you. 

P.s. Do you guys think short posts like these should be YouTube videos instead?

P.p.s. Do you guys remember the bible verse above from this challenge?


Guard your heart above all else, for it determines the course of your life (Proverbs 4:23).

Hii guys!! Long time no conversation. I went for nysc orientation camp (a compulsory one year national youth service for Nigerians after university) in May that’s why I disappeared and then I’ve just been lazy and unconnected to the Source since I got back so I stayed away. As I promised, I’m going to be vulnerable today and tell you about a struggle I recently struggled with 😏😏. 

I’m not one who’s up to date with the latest songs or movies, which is very helpful as I was going off secular music but then as I’m driving or basically living my life trying to be right before God, this catchy, worldly song comes up and refuses to leave my head. Being discerning with music is a struggle for me basically. The recent terror in my head was Ed Sheeran’s shape of you. You guys I fell in love with that song and listened to it everyday, seven days a week. It didn’t help that in camp it was played a lot as well. I don’t download songs until I’m really feeling them and I downloaded this song. The love was really intense. I felt guilty though, I won’t lie. I thought about coming on here and letting it feature as the song of the week but then that in no way edifies anyone or shines any light. I imagined how Jesus would feel if He followed me on twitter and saw me tweeting the lyrics of shape of you. Would he retweet? I think not!! That’s when I decided to seek help from Him. You guys, God is amazing!!! This last week, four things I listened to/watched addressed the issue of our humanity. The thing is we are still human. This morning, as I was reading a book, the purpose driven life, I saw a portion about admitting our limitations. Admitting that we’re human and we don’t have it all figured out. Admitting that sometimes we don’t know what to do and we need guidance. It’s so hard to do that when we’re Christians because we set a high standard for ourselves. The truth is we are hated because we are in this world and not of this world and any slip up, we become the next hot topic on news blogs. Also, because we are humans, some of us set low standards for ourselves. You know these ones by their excuse that sounds like a broken record – the famous “we’re still humans and not perfect anyways”. Revivals are killed by our humanity. Either we think too much of it or not enough or it. The remedy however is seeing ourselves as God sees us – humans that are able to do all things through Him who strengthens us. God knows we are weak but He strengthens us to do all things. And yes, it’s only through God we can do all things. So, our humanity does not make us weak as long as we have God and also we are not able to do it all UNTIL we have God that strengthens us. We need to keep remembering that in Him we live, we move and we have our being.

Back to the music issue, I began rationalizing if listening to secular music was okay as long as it didn’t affect my thought process. Fortunately or unfortunately, I saw a picture of Jay z’s new album on a pastor’s instastory and I used that to justify myself. From justifying myself about listening to secular music, I moved on to justifying wearing inappropriate clothing and condoning swear words, compromising in relationships and basically going against some of my values. It was then I knew I needed a check and went back to the word of God, reading the book of acts (i like this book because it gives the account of the early church which is the account of most of us after accepting Jesus. We’re so gingered at first and then the fire burns out and we’re no longer hot for God. It’s a good book to read when you feel like you’re losing the fire). Later on, my friend sent me a message by Apostle Selman that can be downloaded here. The message is titled “Why revivals die?”. It talks about how our humanity kills revivals. I also stumbled across the Heather Lindsey show episode that talked about music and tv shows and how they unconsciously affect us. You can watch it below. 

I thought that the line – “everyday discovering something brand new” was actually “every woman’s covered in something brand new” and it made me wonder what my smell was and wanted me to get a smell that’s unique to me. Thankfully it wasn’t anything major that it made me do. The song in general though is a very lustful one. Also, watching too many kissing scenes in movies made me wonder if my decision here was me being extreme. I knew it was not something the devil told me to do, I knew it was not something I wanted to do myself because I daydream about kissing my boo. It was something God wanted/or something I wanted to do to give glory to God. During a recent Bible study, i realized that what God wanted in the old testament is what God wanted in the new testament and still wants now. He wants us to be pure without blemish. I saw a quote in twitter that purity is not abstaining from sex, but being focused on God. I want everything that concerns me to be focused on God and that’s why the decision was made. The Bible verse that says guard your heart is truly a good one. 

Jackie Hill Perry did a talk or preaching on spiritual warfare that I watched and she hit some key points. She talked about how the devil is not at war with God because Jesus defeated him a long time ago but the devil is warring with God by messing with our faith.  We wrestle not against flesh and blood but against principalities and powers. She used Adam and Eve as a case study. The devil uses our humanity to mess with us. He presents a version of the Scripture to us but because our faith in God is weak, we don’t realize the verse was taken out of context. Faith is the only weapon of defense in the armor of God therefore we should work out our faith with fear and trembling (2 Corinthians 13:10). You really should watch the video. 

Lastly, I saw a thread on twitter about music. You can read it here. I’ve been obsessed with twitter of late. So many young people sold out to Christ. God is indeed doing wonders with our generation. Have an amazing week guys and pray for our generation. I love you, but God loves you more. 

And it is impossible to please God without faith. Anyone who wants to come to him must believe that God exists and that he rewards those who sincerely seek him (Hebrews 11:6).

I’ll leave you with another episode of the Heather Lindsey show. You can watch more episodes on her youtube channel.

You Are God

My new favourite song is “You are God” by Nathaniel Bassey and Chigozie Achugo. You can download the song here and the lyrics are below. Enjoy!!

You are God from beginning to the end
There’s no place for argument
You are God all by yourself
You are God from beginning to the end
There’s no place for argument
You are God all by yourself

You’ve got times and seasons in your hands
You called for light out of darkness
You don’t need a man to be the God you are
But you have chosen to call me your own

You are God from beginning to the end
There’s no place for argument
You are God all by yourself
You are God from beginning to the end
There’s no place for argument
You are God all by yourself

You’ve got times and seasons in your hands
You called for light out of darkness
You don’t need a man to be the God you are
But you have chosen to call me your own

You are God from beginning to the end
There’s no place for argument
You are God all by yourself
You are God from beginning to the end
There’s no place for argument
You are God all by yourself
You are God from beginning to the end
There’s no place for argument
You are God all by yourself
You are God from beginning to the end
There’s no place for argument
You are God all by yourself
You are God from beginning to the end
There’s no place for argument
You are God all by yourself
You are God from beginning to the end
There’s no place for argument
You are God all by yourself

I think this song is in the album Nathaniel released last year but I just heard it (LASTMA I KNOW!!). My favourite part of the song is the line that God needs no man to be the God He is. It tells us of how useless we are to HIm yet He loves us. Love so beautiful!! Nathaniel Bassey and Mairo Ese have to be my favourite Nigerian music ministers and its quite shocking Nathaniel has never featured on here before. Better late than never right?

What song(s) are you jamming to currently? I’d love to hear from you.

#PhosMoment – Sugarfied

Another #PhosMoment here!!! All the sweet tooth people in the house can I see your hands up?  ✋✋✋✋✋✋✋✋✋

Hi my name is Phos and I’m a sweet tooth. I had been off sugar for a while but relapsed sometime in January and I’m just trying to get it right again. In January, I happened to graduate from the university and was fortunate enough to have a graduation cake. Since it was graduation, I decided to have a cheat day which became a cheat week and then a cheat month. Just tasting sugar once revived the sugar lover in me and I relapsed. 

This is the same with sin. My Bible study teachers when I was younger will tell us that when we tell just one lie, we need like 50 more to cover it up, which is true. This however is not limited to just lies. We wrestle not against flesh and blood but against principalities and powers and just like on the battlefield, the opponent looks for weak spots to attack – any part of the body that’s not protected, because once a soldier is hit, he becomes compromised. He’s weaker and it’s easier for the enemy to attack him again or even kill him. The devil is out there looking for who to kill, steal and destroy and the moment he finds a weak spot, he takes advantage of it and all he needs is for you to fall once and he’ll make you fall over and over again. All hope is not lost however because the Bible says if we confess our sins, he’s faithful to forgive us of all our sins, and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness (1 John 1:9). Therefore if you fall, immediately get up and clean yourself up by asking God for forgiveness and don’t turn a cheat second into a cheat minute or a cheat hour or a cheat day or a cheat week or a cheat month. Get up immediately and clean yourself. For example, watching or reading pornography, one might not know by just clicking a link that he’ll get to such a site and then he gets there and starts watching instead of closing it immediately he found out then someone walks in and asks, what he’s doing and he lies and the lie leads to more lies and all that. The ideal thing however was to close the site once it was found out what kind of site it. It’s easier said than done though. God help us all. 

Something similar happened to me. I decided (it’s a choice) to continue in the sin since I had already started and then I remembered my sugar days and just like that #PhosMoment. Thankfully though, i realized what was happening before it got out of hand. I do not want to imagine what would have happened if it went out of hand so I thought to share so we can encourage ourselves.

What Phos Moment have you had lately?? 

Can girls and guys be just friends? 

“And I am convinced that nothing can ever separate us from God’s love. Neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons, neither our fears for today nor our worries about tomorrow–not even the powers of hell can separate us from God’s love.” Romans 8:38 (NLT)

I don’t know if y’all are like me and think that boys and girls can’t be just friends without developing romantic feelings for themselves. Well I’m not like that again but that used to be me. Or rather I’m trying not to be like that. My case was extreeeemmmeeee. It was getting out of hand. I thought every guy that spoke to me wanted a relationship and that really isn’t true. 

I declared a boy fast a couple of weeks ago and that means that instead of daydreaming about a boy that could be my husband, I’ll go and read my Bible or pray. The fast has been a terrible flop. It flopped soooooo bad I’m ashamed. So I decided to go to the Genesis (Like the Davies will say)  and I realized I didn’t believe any guy will walk up to me and talk to me if he wasn’t attracted and if I did the walking up, I believed he’ll get attracted eventually and so every guy I spoke to was potential husband. Now that is ironic because I have a lot of guy friends that are really just friends, no strings attached so I don’t know how this mindset came about. And also if a guy wasn’t talking to me, I thought I was not attractive. This is a lie from the pit of hell. The purpose of relationships is to add value. If I don’t think you can add value to me, I won’t talk to you and I think others think that before they talk to me too. So no you guys, it’s not because guys are attracted to me they talk to me. I remember a friend I had that said he talks to me cos I make him laugh and when he’s having a bad day, the conversation cheers him up. I have a friend that anytime he messages me, I know I’m gon’ learn something from the scripture that day. So it’s possible to have a no strings attached relationship with the opposite sex. 

I also decided to take a look at Jesus’ life. He had no babe but he had female friends. Maybe it was because of Mary sef that Judas went to betray Him. Martha also was his friend. Although their brother, Lazarus was part of the quartet. Also, the Samaritan woman, Jesus spoke to her first and it was not because He was attracted to her, but because He did not want her to perish (agape love) plus she had evangelistic potential in her and He was just helping her discover it. Same thing he did with Paul (sermon for another day). Jesus was also friends with Mary Magdalene. I believe He was popular with the females sef that’s why they went to His grave to anoint Him with spices on the third day (Mark 16:1). If Jesus just shunned the women saying He wasn’t here to develop feelings, I don’t think they’d have wanted to go and anoint Him with spices. Jesus was human and He felt like us so I’m very sure He could have crushed on girls but He controlled His feelings and was just friends with a them. So again, I say, guys and girls can be just friends. 

This obviously is not something that just happens. It’s by making a conscious effort, renewing the mind. So guys, I have renewed my mind. If Jesus was just friends with girls, I can be just friends with boys too and when I happen to have a stubborn crush that refuses to die, I literally run from the temptation (I did this last sunday). I don’t hang around the person, or draw unnecessary attention to myself. And also, the boy fast, it works guys. Although I’m not that faithful with it, I don’t read my Bible or pray (I pray about it when I remember though), but I start exercising or see a movie when I start daydreaming. I believe everyone needs to come to this realization. The Bible says to guard one’s heart and this is one way to ensure that. Thinking every guy or girl out there is into you, creates a reality in your head that’s not always the reality. I once listened to a preaching by Heather Lindsey and she said imagine you’re thinking this guy called B is into you simply because he asked for your name and so in your head you’ve planned your wedding because you think He’s everything you’ve dreamed of (the only real conversation you’ve had with him was he asking for your name) but then 2 months later you hear B is engaged to this girl called A and you become heartbroken and nurse hatred for A. What does she have that you do not anyways? Meanwhile A never did anything to you but because you hadn’t guarded your heart and started imagining things that were not, you played yourself. I’d also like to add here not to encourage guys /girls attracted to you but you know there’s no future with both of you as a couple in it. I know you’re enjoying the attention but you’re wrecking the other person emotionally. That’s not a way to love your neighbour. I also believe that being able to control your thoughts and feelings prepares one for marriage. You’re going to be with just one person in the end and there would be tons of guys that’ll be better looking that’ll come your way. Whether as business partners, clients, shop attendants, bosses, whatever they are, they’ll come your way and you have to be able to control yourself and your emotions. 

With these few points of mine, I hope I have been able to convince you that boys and girls can be friends. Can they be best friends however? I don’t think so. Only your significant other is allowed to be your best friend of the opposite sex. Adieous! 

*Disclaimer: This is not a cast in stone advice. It is just my opinion and any guy reading this, please adjust scenarios to suit you. I’m female that’s why I used such examples, forgive me. Also, a relationship/friendship takes two people so if you’re not willing to be just friends with the opposite sex, this post is not for you. 

Do you think girls and guys can be just friends? or best friends even?


Since there’s a day for everything and we’re supposed to celebrate our weaknesses because it shows our dependence on God, why not a #nationalthorninthefleshday? Heather Lindsey posted something on instagram recently and I was just like word!!!!!!!! You know what? I’ll just post the picture. 

So yh! I have this idea in my head of who I’m supposed to be and then there’s the reality which doesn’t come close. Or maybe it does and I’m just hard on myself but sometimes I’ll rather just lie in bed and think of how cool I am in my head and just think about how awesome I am there too and how the “my head” version of me, could run for president and win. Too much? The woman in my head is perfect. She has thorns in her flesh too but she carries them so gracefully. She’s so into God and their relationship is like the one God had with Moses. She’s a woman after God’s heart. I call her Davida.

Now Davida and I are the same person so I wonder why she has it so put together and I do not. She’s clumsy like me but hers is classy, mine is annoying (only sometimes though), you get? And because Davida is a whole lot cooler than me, like if I sit to tell you about Davida you’ll see that we’re poles apart, I fret, worry, am anxious, A LOT! Worrying or being fretful is not having peace of mind due to something (s). Its being troubled and depressed and doubting God eventually. I realized this pattern and was done, through, finito!! I tried to forget how much of a mess i am but seeing that I live with me, its hard to do that. I even prayed to God to help me see just the good and perfect side of me but we’re still here. That’s why what Heather posted gave me so much life. God’s grace is sufficient for me. He always surpasses my expectations. My expectation could be that I’ll some day be like David but with God, I become the best version of me (who won’t kill Uriah and take on his wife. No shade David). I won’t ever “arrive” like Heather put it. I used to tell myself that when I had some things or got to a certain age I would, but that did not happen so I fret that time is being wasted and I have not arrived yet. I fret about time the most but then I remember that God is never late nor is He too early, He is always on time. I fret about what to wear but the bible has told me not to. The truth of the matter is that we’re all not perfect people in that we fear and we worry, we have insecurities, we don’t have it all together and we’re not good enough for God and the devil keeps reminding us about this. However think about this, if we were so fresh and fly, we won’t feel like we need Jesus.  Our weaknesses show us that we are made perfect in Christ. Andrew Wommack said that the first time he was on tv, he watched the episode and was so disappointed and called God out on it. Like why did God tell him to start tv shows if He knew he was this bad at it. He hadn’t finished calling God out when he received a call from a friend about how great he was on tv. Apparently, he was the only one who thought he was awful and then he realized that God’s strength is perfected in his weaknesses. We do our best and wherever we stop is where God takes over. That’s grace. Grace fills the gap of where we are and where God wants us to be. God is so amazing. He’s awesome. So today I’m celebrating that I’m not Davida because I don’t want to have it all put together and forget that I need God. Once I have grown to the level of never forgetting that I need God (never forgetting to pray before I eat), then I can be like Davida, actually be better. To be honest, I just want to be who God wants me to be because that way I know I’m fine and I’m making Him proud. I really want God to call me a girl after His own heart. Is that what you want as well?

Happy National Thorn in the Flesh Day Guys!!! Sorry for not posting at all last week. Very long week I had. This week will be better by God’s grace don’t worry and I have many things to share. What thorn in the flesh are you shaming? I’d love to read from you.

P.s always remember that a rose is not a rose without its thorns. I like to think that roses have thorns because they are so special. God didn’t want people plucking out roses anyhow so He gave the roses thorns to give the pluckers a tough time. What do you think?

#PhosMoment – A Wi-Fi Hack

Another #PhosMoment today. The last PhosMoment was on Vampire diaries which is finally over BTW and I feel like I’ve lost a part of me. *sigh*

 Anyways……. anyone who knows me knows I’m #teamwifi. In Nigeria, my country, good Wi-Fi is like gold and so there are hacks here and there. I realized recently that the Wi-Fi of the house got to my room upstairs only when I was the only one connected to it. When everyone has gone about their daily hustle, and I’m at home alone, I realized accessing the Wi-Fi from my room was a breeze unlike when everyone was home and connected and I had to sit on the staircase to make my connection bareable and even with that it was still slow and shaky. Apparently, the other devices were distracting my device from having a strong and fast connection. So dear friends, I had a va va voom moment. For a while, in December last year and January this year, I had been doing my quiet time in the presence of people. They were doing their thing and I was doing mine but I still didn’t feel the connection to God so I went back to doing my devotion before daybreak and the connection was strong. Have you seen where I’m headed with this? The connection with God is strong when it’s just you and Him and the connection is just bareable, shaky, slow or sometimes even weak when there are distractions. I have therefore set an alarm to wake me up before everyone is up so that I can download and stream as much as I can from the source. 

When do you have your quiet time and when do you think your quiet time is most effective? When it’s done in the morning? At night? When you’re hungry? Or happy or sleepy or sad? Share with the family. We can take a que from you. 

P.s: See I’m getting a hang on working and still having a life.


Look to the LORD and his strength; seek his face always (1 Chor. 16:11).

Do you guys know this song? 

Prayer is the key

Prayer is the key

Prayer is the master key

Jesus started with prayer

And ended with prayer 

Prayer is the master key

Two things that I stumble the most with in this Christian walk thing are prayer and fasting. I think I struggle with them the most because I don’t know the right way or the right times to be involved in them. 1 Thess. 5:17 says pray without ceasing and so as I’m moving I’m like God this this this and that that that and I think I’m fine. But this daily carrying your cross thing ministered to me that every morning I should consciously pray for God to help me carry my cross since I obviously cannot do this on my own. Therefore, praying without ceasing involves praying all the time, even when I’m working or walking and includes the prayer to God every morning to let my light so shine in all my conducts so that people see the good works in me and glorify Him. Some people say praying at night is also essential as that is when the people of darkness plan and execute their dark ways and so we gotta pray. I also know praying in tongues everyday is an essential. I never know what to pray for so I do this a lot. I particularly enjoy this one. The kind of outcomes this praying in tongues brings ehn, it needs a whole paragraph of it’s own. 

So I became a Christian when I was like 5 or 7. Prior to then, I gave my life to Christ every Sunday. Actually everyone in my class did and my teacher noticed and told us that we had to do it just once and we were good. So from that Sunday, we stopped giving our lives to Christ since we were saved. Fast forward to 2011 where some pastor came to share his salvation story. It was father’s day and it pains me that I don’t remember his name. Anyways that day I rededicated my life to God and that’s the day I say I got saved. That’s when I started consciously living in Christ, although it took me a lot of shaking and ruffling here and there before I was rooted. The point of this throwback story is that I got saved in 2011 but didn’t get the gift of speaking in tongues till 2016. 5 years later!!! Some people are privileged to get it immediately they convert but some of us don’t get it till 5 years or more. I don’t know how others get theirs but mine was gotten through the laying of hands. Hands were laid on me and people that could already speak in tongues spoke in tongues till I could. Not everyone left there with the gift of speaking in tongues because God’s timing is perfect. He’s never too early or too late. As a matter of fact, I left there feeling like I couldn’t speak in tongues but the woman that prayed for me kept saying “it’s at the tip of your tongue, just say it. Since it’s from God it can’t be evil”. But what was on the tip of my tongue did not sound like the normal tongues I knew so I didn’t say it until I was on my way home. I didn’t like praying in tongues because I felt my tongues were weird until one day, I was in my room alone, my roommates had gone home because exams were over, and I prayed in tongues for an hour. I timed myself. I figured practice made perfect and the more I prayed in tongues, the more normal I’d sound. That day though changed my perspective of tongues. God obviously heard me and met needs I didn’t know I had. It was that day I realized there’s no one way to pray in tongues. As long as God is the one behind it, you’re good. Since I realized that, I have been hearing tongues stranger than mine and I just mentally add the tongues prayer into our association of weird tongues prayers. The point I am trying to make here is that God is all knowing. Praying in tongues is praying for things you don’t even know you need to pray for. I read in a book that a man woke up one night to pray in tongues. Like the spirit just woke him up to pray and he obliged until his heart was no longer heavy. The next day he realized someone close to him was in an accident at that very time he was praying and was fighting for his life. The prayer he had prayed helped the guy to stay alive. So yes praying in tongues is a big deal. I know that some people reading this might not be able to pray in tongues and it’s fine. I know there’s persecution against people that can’t speak in tongues. I once went to a fellowship and they told only those who could pray in tongues to come forward and pray. While the rest of us were on our seats. I felt really bad so I know what you’re going through. Just remember that Gods time is the best. Don’t stop asking, but don’t let it rule your life. Keep growing in the faith and God would surely release the gift upon you. 

Ehen, back to what I was saying before I digressed, there’s no right or wrong when it comes to prayers unless you’re praying like the Pharisees then that’s wrong (Matt. 6:5). The Bible does not tell us how many times to pray, what to pray about, the position of prayer, all the instructions of prayer are very vague. From my study on prayer, I have realized God did this on purpose. The Holy Spirit is who teaches us how to pray. We have figured out a way for me that works just fine. I used to have a list of names of people I’m praying for and I’ll pray for them and spend an hour. I don’t have that luxury of time anymore and so I stopped. However the Holy Spirit has taught me another way to go about it. There’s no hard and fast rule. The Bible says the things of God are foolishness to the people of the world and the Holy Spirit teaches and counsels us and reveals the things of God to us. The Holy Spirit explains what praying without ceasing is. He explains what Jesus meant when He was designing the Lord’s prayer. He even defines what prayer is. The definition of prayer I got was seeking the face of God. This has made me more conscious about praying every morning and at night. I constantly want to know what’s on God’s mind at all points in time concerning everything. In the morning though it’s about my day, and at night it’s what I want Him to reveal to me about the future or other issues. I’ve gotten to a point of understanding and now I am no longer anxious about anything because I take it to God in prayer and the peace of God which passeth all understanding is mine. 

Prayer is communing with God. I just decided to use seeking His face as the English I wanted. Anytime we talk to God, it’s prayer. Something as little as “God please what should I wear today?” or asking God to help you with a difficult task and trusting His response, is prayer. That’s why the Bible says pray without ceasing. It means be in constant communication with the Spirit. We’re supposed to walk in the Spirit remember? That’s what I’ve learnt about prayer. This past week, a lot of prayers were answered. Sometimes we are not getting results because we haven’t asked. I learnt that as well. This is the confidence we have in approaching God: that if we ask anything according to his will, he hears us (1 John 5:14).

How do you guys fit prayer into your lives? And have you been discriminated against cos you can’t or couldn’t speak in tongues? What is your favorite praying position? I don’t have one. What do you generally think about praying? Share your thoughts with us… xx

P. S: Prayer is different from declaration.

Being Judas

So recently, I’ve been obsessed with Judas Iscariot. The Bible in one year plan I use started off the year with Matthew, Mark, Luke and John and I’ve been intrigued by the betrayal ever since. The Bible has the story of the betrayal preceded by the story of a woman pouring expensive perfume on Jesus’ feet and then wiping it with her hair. Judas then voiced out his thoughts that the perfume should have been sold and then the money given to charity instead of wasting it on the feet of Jesus. Apparently Judas was the treasurer of the Jesus and friends association and used to steal the money. So he really just looked at the situation as a waste of money he could have taken for himself to do whatever he wanted to. That was why he went to the Pharisees and asked what he’ll be given if he handed Jesus over to them (Matt. 26:23). The love of money is truly the root of all evil. This little story has a lot of lessons in it. Whenever people say one is being a Judas, everyone just assumes the person betrayed someone but the truth is there’s more to it and you’ll realize you’ve been a Judas at one point or the other. 

Judas did not remove the log in his eye before removing what he thought was a speck in Jesus’ eye. I mean if anyone accused Jesus of doing anything bad, it shouldn’t have been the king of the baddest boys (I mean bad in the real not good sense of bad). He probably felt Jesus was a fake then he got angry and went to sell Him to the Pharisees. I mean what Son of God would waste perfume on himself when people are starving? He forgot it was the same Jesus that fed the 5000 men one time and 4000 men the other time. The money was not even going to get to the starving people. Jesus is all knowing. He knew that. Plus because we are followers of Christ does not mean we cannot enjoy ourselves. It’s okay to buy clothes, perfumes and all. It only becomes a problem when we put these things before God. The money we have and our possessions are gifts from God so if God tells us to give them away, we should adhere, if God tells us we can spoil ourselves, please go ahead. Jesus rebuked Peter for thinking in the flesh and not in the Spirit (Matt. 16:23) which is what Judas was doing. Jesus had already said that what he says and does was instructed to Him by the father and He did not do anything out of His Job description (John 8:28). Also, remember that everyone is working out their salvation with fear and trembling so you can’t just judge a person from the outside. A while back, a woman said she was mad at a Christian brother for cheating on his wife or was it divorcing his wife. One of the two. And she said she stopped listening to anything from him until God told her the guy had come to Him and repented and he was forgiven and had a clean slate with Him and that she should stop drinking panadol for His headache. The guy was already in God’s good book while she was nursing anger and hatred which are both fruits of the flesh. I’m sure in her mind she thought it was righteous hate and anger. I mean it was on God’s behalf but the truth is everyone has their relationship with God, so rather than judge people, go to God and find out what’s happening. If true true the brother is in sin, God will direct you on how to correct the person. It is no longer you who lives. We always seem to forget this. I pray that God will help us and constantly remind us that it’s not about us but about Him really IJN  

So about removing the log in our eye, Judas was a thief. I mean he was a thief! He used to steal. He didn’t see that one as a problem ooo. It was Jesus uncompassionate ways he saw as a sin that deserved punishment. So he went to sell him out. We are sometimes too busy checking and pointing out other people’s sins that we don’t see ours. The Bible tells us to constantly check that our faith is still intact (2 Cor. 13:5). Yes we are children of God and we have the Spirit does not mean we live in it. We have to daily take up our cross. Daily remember to die to self. Daily pray for God to take over. It’s something we have to remember to do all the time. The truth is that it’s easier said than done and so we need to keep checking to see if we’re in the faith. This can we done by checking through the fruits of the flesh which is an extensive list. You have to read the whole Bible to know all of them. You can do this or get an accountability partner or partners preferably – God and some brother or sister in the Lord that you trust and respect. Anytime you’re producing a fruit of the flesh, they’re there to point it out. God is with us everywhere we go (like MTN), so He can rebuke us immediately. The human, is just there because sometimes we need strong hand. Someone that can physically beat us or drag us or wake us up with a slap. I’m kidding. But sometimes we need to hear somethings about ourselves from the people that surround us. Even Jesus asked His disciples who the people and they, think He is. 

Judas loved money. It’s possible that Judas thought Jesus was going to just disappear when the Pharisees came and so he was just playing the Pharisees and collecting their money. He was being a sharp guy in his small mind. The ways of God and His thoughts are higher than ours though and our wisdom is foolishness to Him. The fear of God is the beginning of wisdom (Pro. 9:10). To fear God is to reverence Him and acknowledge that Jesus came to die for us and ressurected on the third day and is now seated at Gods right hand side. The beginning of wisdom is believing, having faith, walking in the Spirit. The earlier we learn this, the better for us. We can’t be sharp guys if we don’t walk in the word of God that’s sharper than any two edged sword cutting deep between bone and marrow (Heb. 4:12). I repeat, the love of money is truly the root of all evil (1 Tim. 6:10). 

Judas followed Jesus with his legs and not his heart. If Judas had listened to Jesus’ teachings, and let it sink inside of him, he would have known that Jesus was able to forgive him of his sins, no sin being too intense. Peter knew this and that’s why he didn’t hang himself after denying Jesus as Judas did. Many “Christians” today are just working for God and not walking with Him and in the end they’ll be surprised when God says I know thee not. That was the problem He had with one of the churches He sent John to in revelations (Rev. 3:1-6). They had forgotten all about the ‘al’ in walking in faith and replaced it with an ‘or’ thinking that it’s by deeds one gains favor with God. If Judas had a relationship with Jesus, the story would be different today. 

Judas thought only about himself. He didn’t care on whose toes he had to step on to get what he wanted. He was deceived by the lust of the eyes, lust of the flesh and the pride of life (1 John 2:16). I’m also sure somebody fooled him with that “heaven helps those who helps themselves” line. That line is not in the word of God and If anything, I think it means you can’t expect to inherit the Kingdom of Heaven if you don’t walk in the Spirit. So help yourself by acknowledging Jesus as your personal Lord and Savior and declaring to trust in Him and that it’s no longer you who lives. After that, heaven helps by sealing you with the Holy Spirit that’ll tell you the things God has planned for you and teaching and explaining things of God to you. Heaven gives the Holy Spirit to us as a cheat code. Once we adhere to the voice of the Holy Spirit we’re sure of heaven. No stress. That’s how heaven helps those who help themselves. 

Lastly and most common, we know that Judas was a betrayer. He was ungrateful. Jesus had made him a cool kid. I mean he went out performing signs and wonders. It wasn’t by his own strength though but he didn’t remember. He was one of the guys who was with the water walking guy. It was possible Judas was jealous of Jesus. I mean a beautiful damsel was pouring expensive perfume at His feet and wiping it with her hair. In those days, women adored their perfumes and their hair yet one beautiful woman lay it all before Jesus. Maybe he had been toasting this girl, we don’t know. All we know is that after this incident he went to sell Jesus so it’s possible he felt Jesus was cramping his style and needed to be gone and so he sold him despite all that Jesus had done for him. He betrayed his master. 

Oya please wait. Don’t shoot me. I know someone had to betray Jesus. It was necessary for Jesus to die so I’m talking nonsense abi? You guys, there were 11 other apostles that could have betrayed Jesus. Why was it Judas? The above points answer the question. God is not a wicked God. He won’t turn a righteous person bad just to fulfill His ways. They say that by their fruits you shall know them. Jesus noticed these things about Judas and knew he’d be the perfect person for the job. Judas was so gone that Satan could enter and leave him anytime. Little drops of water make a mighty ocean. It therefore was not all of a sudden that Judas became a betrayer. I would like to believe that his friends in the Jesus and friends association sat him down to point out these his faults to him but I’m not sure he was friends with any of them. When Judas asked if he would be the one to betray Jesus and Jesus said it would be as he said and told him to go and get it done and Judas stood up to go outside (John 13:27), I don’t recall anyone following him to counsel him or stop him from doing what he will regret. They assumed that it was for other reasons he was going out. When he had betrayed Jesus finish and was feeling bad, there was no one he could talk to and so he committed suicide. This has taught me to learn to care for the people around me. Constantly call to check up on them, send words of wisdom, share testimonies and all. Nobody is ever too far gone. Apostle Paul is a living testimony. Even if the devil is living inside the person, salvation is still possible with prayers and counsel. Plus assumptions are not always true so I’ll keep checking to make sure we’re all running the race. It has also taught me that I need people. I really like being by myself but now I know it’s not every time that’s me time. 

Feel free to study the Judas story and tell me what you’ve learnt. This took me months to understand so take your time. Don’t rush it! If you’ve already done a study about this topic, please share what you’ve learnt. Iron sharpens iron. 

P.s: I think Judas would have been one of those people that thought he was the real deal. Too cool for school and all that hence the header. What do you think Judas would have been like?