Notes to my younger myself

Hi babygirl,

In life, you have to know what you want but then that is a process so don’t beat yourself up if you don’t know yet.

God is the creator and He knows why He created you so I suggest take some time out to get guidance from Him. It’s something so little yet so key because the truth is His will would always be done so it’s better to know what it is and walk in it instead of going round in circles and still coming back to it.

I know that one is most sensitive to the voice of God during a fast so that would be my advice, even though you might not get the answer immediately. It could take a while. Try the Daniel fast sometime.

While you’re fasting though dabble into different things here and there and find mentors or read about people that have succeeded in the fields you want to go into. God has given you the skill to do all sorts of things.

Don’t be idle!! An idle mind is the devil’s workshop.

Don’t be shy to ask for advice from older people and don’t be scared to work for free too. You’re in the building stage of your life so anything that will add value, please do.

As you’re being sensitive to the Holy Spirit be sensitive to your environment. Look for problems and try to find solutions to them.

Bind and cast the spirit of laziness and procrastination because they are the worst.

If you fail at anything, do not beat yourself up or sulk or mourn. Hurry and get up so that you can try the next thing. A failure is a step closer to a breakthrough. At least you’ve learnt what you should not do or how you should not go about a thing.

Just because you think you like him/her does not mean they’re good for you. Test all likes!!

Don’t rush into things without knowing exactly what you’re getting into.

Do not choose a partner based on how he relates with you friends’ partners. He is probably not God’s choice for you.

Do not think you will marry him just because he loves God. Not every man of God is your husband.

Do not worry, you will eventually meet your husband. Just make sure you have heard properly from God first.

You will never know how to love your partner if you do not love God. You find out that your love for him increases from loving God. I just understood this today so do not beat yourself up if you do not understand.

Never lie to your parents. NEVER!! You will regret it.

“A man can receive nothing unless it is given to him from Heaven” – John 3:27. Everything you have was given to you by God so feel free to ask Him for the user’s manual.

Everything will work out for your good because you love God and are called according to His purpose. Do not forget the reason everything will work out for your good!! You have to love God and walk in the purpose He has for you. Don’t worry if you don’t know your purpose yet, you will eventually (and you will love it). However you only find out from spending time with God.

You will realize that all you’re going to go through is preparing you for your purpose.

Always show love to others Don’t be scared to go above and beyond. Show love even if, in fact, especially if you know it won’t be reciprocated. It is a good feeling.

Read a lot my dear.

Use your time wisely.

Sleep less.

You will have very good taste in music eventually.

Never compromise on your standards, they are not too high.

You must decrease for God to increase. Do not hold on to yourself. What does it profit a man if he gains the whole world but loses his soul.

You will find a church that excites you to go to church on Sundays.

Speak declarations over your life (including your husband and children babycakes). This is what Jesus meant when He said you should have faith as little as a mustard seed. When you speak the words God has revealed to you over your life, you do not fret or have panic attacks (ahh you will have these) when hard times come because you have spoken and believe the word of God concerning you (in other words, you have faith).

You are  fearfully, wonderfully and perfectly made. You will eventually see it. Just wait.

God is worthy to lean on. Trust in the Lord with all you heart and lean not on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge Him and He will direct your path.

You are nothing without God. So do not leave Him.

God’s strength is made known in your weakness. You won’t always have it all figured out or you might not be able to handle all of it. That is when God comes in.

Let your light shine so bright that others see the good work in you and glorify your father in Heaven. This should be your mantra.

Learn to save.

Always give your first fruit to God, not because it is a law, but because you want to. First fruit of your day, income, everything.

You are loved by God, your family, friends, even strangers will love you.

Do not be afraid of man who can kill only body but fear God that can kill both body and soul.

Sometimes you will feel your fire for God burning out, when that happens, come back to read this or anyone of the previous posts or the book of acts.

Drink a lot of water.

Don’t joke with your health.

Never stop improving yourself.

Have a gentle and quiet spirit (Lam 3:27-28).

Don’t let what people say about you get to you, especially if it is not true. Only God’s thoughts towards you matters.

The Holy Spirit is your best friend boo.

Don’t get bored of reading your bible.

Most finally, NEVER STOP LAUGHING!! Life is not that hard.

I love you so much my darling, which is why I am writing this. You’re amazing.

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Barc…

Sooo, Barca won the El-Classico yesterday. My sister is on top of the world now I’m sure. I’m a forever Madrid fan however so bleehhhh. I don’t care if they have not been their best lately because I’m ride or die!! Anyways I’m Barc (hence the title of this post), I don’t know for how long though but there’s a new post so I’m back!!!

What have I been up to? I’ve been a dead babe. I actually cannot point out anything that I have achieved in the past few months. I have tried so hard to balance every area of my life and have failed woofully. I ended up not giving any area enough time and so it was a major flop. I’ve been the definition of Jack of all trades master of none. I have learnt though, that sacrifices have to be made in order to be successful. So if I want to be a good daughter and do chores, I have to sacrifice sleep. If I want to be a better employee, I have to work later hours sometimes and do professional exams and if I want to pass professional exams I have to spend less time with friends but I can make it up to them when I pass and my salary increases 😭😭. So yes sacrifices have to be made in life. It’s just up to you to prioritize and choose what you’re sacrificing.

This post is actually a song of the week, but I have to give a background story first (permit me please). The first time I heard this song happened to be the time in my life when I was the loneliest but experienced love like I had never experienced before. The love of God is real guys!! So I finished secondary school and found out I was fighting with my mum a lot which was weird because my mum and I are bffs (unless it comes to boy matters). Sha we fought a whole lot and I later found out the family was in debt that was why. My extravagant ideas for graduation could not be afforded and she didn’t know how to tell me that was the reason why. Basically it was a tough year/couple of years for us and there was no one to talk to except family because no one could understand. I have learnt this year not to be apologetic that I am living a good life but to just thank God that He has been good to me. A lot of times, the things “rich” people see as problems are “poor” people’s realities and they get called ungrateful that they see these things as problems. I really do not agree with that line of thought. You cannot blame someone for having lived a good life (unless their source of wealth is not pure). Anyways, that was a point in my life where i felt lonely. I did not get admission into the university immediately because plans had to change so I stopped talking to a lot of friends from school and I felt like I was being left behind so I generally just kept to myself. Someone even told me he heard a rumor that I failed WAEC that was why I became lowkey. Hard time mehn!!! The point is that it was a bad time in my life, I stopped talking to friends but I drew closer to God and experienced love from Him in ways I could not imagine and to appreciate Him, I signed up to sing for the yearly concert at church and this week’s song of the week was the opening song. When you experience God’s love, you do things for God not because you have to but because you want to. My family and I are good now BTW, thank you for asking.

I have been feeling lonely again since my birthday earlier this month. I’m the only corp member at work, the only female in my department, I do not really have friends in church because I switched churches, the only one of my university classmates writing my proffession’s professional exam with the American body. I started projecting and at home, I felt I was failing as a daughter (I did not feel I was doing enough for my parents). I haven’t gotten to church early in weeks because I did not want to be “alone” so I try to stall as much as possible and sometimes I don’t even go. I do not go for lunch a lot at work anymore because I do not want to sit alone. All these things were happening around me and I had no one to tell and I felt so lonely. I had mastered being alone so much that people called me coded. Now I had mastered not being alone so much that I had become scared of loneliness. This life!! Today, the ushering department that I have wanted to join since forever asked for new members and I did not sign up because I felt it will just be another journey alone and I walked out. This was when I knew this was a serious something. Loneliness stopping me from serving God? Mbanu!! 

I had a talk with myself in the car before driving out about how stupid it was to be back to this scared of loneliness stage and I got home ready to trash out the issue with God. I used to be so good at being alone that I called myself the mystery girl and now I was avoiding it. Anyways, I put on my laptop to play music to get me in the zone and this song came up and I couldn’t help but smile. That time was such a great time in my life when I realized that Jesus is all I need. It is true what Nathaniel Bassey and Pastor Poju preached a while ago that we are weary and downcast because we have forgotten. We worry about tomorrow because we have forgotten that it was God that took care of today when we were still in yesterday. If you have not taken anything out of this story, remember that Jesus is all you need. I have realized that the lonely feeling does not mean that I am locked away from the world, It just means I am abiding under the shadow of the Almighty. God is my safe place so I am not shut out of the world, I am just with Him because He is the only one that understands or can relate so instead of standing by the gate and feeling trapped, I will just sit with him and discuss everything I am feeling and let Him help me. He is all knowing anyways…

The title of the song is Kuse by  Psalmos ft Kore. You an download the song here. The lyrics are below.

Mo wo waju mi mo ri owo yin
Mo wo eyin wo mo ri ife yin
Won wa bere lo wo mi pe bawo ni mo se se
Mo so fun won wipe eeeeee

Solo:
(Emi na ko o olorun oba ma ni
Olo run oba ma ni
Olorun oba ma ni) 2x

Chorus:
(Moni baba kan oo
Moni baba kan ooo
Baba ara to mo iyi omo) 6x

Oluwa ku ise
Ehhh ehhhh ehhhh
Ku isee…
Ehhh ehhhh ehhhh
Ku isee…
Oooooooooo
Oluwa ku ise oooo
Ehhh ehhhh ehhhh
Ku isee…

Oni ko bi o su bu mo ro bi oo (elo o se ye)
Eterete ooo baba ku ise…(elelele jare bio ) 3x

(Oluwa ku ise
Iba mi ku ise) 2x
Ku ise 5x

Oni ko bi o su bu mo ro bi oo
Eterete ooo baba ku ise) 3x

Mo de wa so pe
Ni mo de wa so pe oo) 2x

O ni kan she lo ore ire bo…
Orun bi o ni…
Emi kan se lore iwo nbo…
Mo de ya so pe oooo ehhh.

Interlude:
Eyin bi olode o ba ku
Oju ide re kin ru ikoriko
Ko sa aseyin olubori
Ato fi arati bi oke
Ti emi
A le mi no emi
Ti mo fi goke odo afara tanja
Ara efi oju ire wo mi
Eniya efi owo anu kan mi
Emi na ko..
Eledumare ni
Olorun mi ahhh
Baba mi
Eledumare
Ogba gba ti gba alara ilara
Oba aa ji ki
Oba aa ji rii
Ehhh eyin
Ehhh beeee

Chorus:
Oni ko bi o su bu mo ro bi oo
Eterete ooo baba ku ise

Interlude
Oni kan wi o subu (maro guro ehhh)3x
Oooo…ooooooooooo

I have missed you guys so much and I plan to use these few days of holiday (since my company does not close for Christmas) to post a lot of things. Over to you now. Do you ever feel lonely? Or have you ever felt lonely? What do/did you do to overcome it?

P.S. Did you see that I kept my word and came back with a #CCC? I think I deserve a Christmas gift for this. Or a late birthday gift. What do you think?

The “Nobody did it for me” syndrome

This is how we know what love is: Jesus Christ laid down his life for us. And we ought to lay down our lives for our brothers and sisters (1 John 3:16).

Hi again!! I’m taking my life and blogging seriously now so I’m trying to be more consistent. I have a schedule and all. Thank master Jesus for giving me wisdom (and thank me for finally accepting it 😌😏). So I have a story for you guys today. 

Story story… Once upon a time, so a new staff joined my department this past week and everyone tried to get him integrated into the system by explaining stuff to him and putting him through anything he had issues with. We’re good people you know 😏. However, when we joined the department, no integration was done for us and so one of the old staff made this famous “nobody did it for me” comment and jokingly said he was done helping the man to integrate, then he took a break. I on the other hand, continued helping this man integrate then had to quickly run an errand and found myself thinking the “nobody did this for me” thought. Not for long though because the Holy Spirit interrupted by telling me that Jesus died for me yet I wasn’t dying for anyone so what did it matter if no one did it for me? Deep stuff!! I was made to understand that daily carrying my cross to follow God, loving Him and loving my neighbors as I love myself, walking in the Spirit, basically doing things that please the father, not the world, is dying everyday. The selfless act of helping the new guy integrate when no one did it for me was doing what Jesus did on the cross for me. 

So you people that have the “nobody did it for me” syndrome and those of you that do not, I’m asking you today. How do you lay your life for others on a daily basis? At least someone did that for you. 

Hope your week started off lovely? Mine started with a bang. The message on Sunday morning was AMAZING!! What did your Pastor preach about on Sunday? Have a great week ahead, God bless you. 

P.s. Do you guys think short posts like these should be YouTube videos instead?

P.p.s. Do you guys remember the bible verse above from this challenge?

#nationalthorninthefleshday

Since there’s a day for everything and we’re supposed to celebrate our weaknesses because it shows our dependence on God, why not a #nationalthorninthefleshday? Heather Lindsey posted something on instagram recently and I was just like word!!!!!!!! You know what? I’ll just post the picture. 

So yh! I have this idea in my head of who I’m supposed to be and then there’s the reality which doesn’t come close. Or maybe it does and I’m just hard on myself but sometimes I’ll rather just lie in bed and think of how cool I am in my head and just think about how awesome I am there too and how the “my head” version of me, could run for president and win. Too much? The woman in my head is perfect. She has thorns in her flesh too but she carries them so gracefully. She’s so into God and their relationship is like the one God had with Moses. She’s a woman after God’s heart. I call her Davida.

Now Davida and I are the same person so I wonder why she has it so put together and I do not. She’s clumsy like me but hers is classy, mine is annoying (only sometimes though), you get? And because Davida is a whole lot cooler than me, like if I sit to tell you about Davida you’ll see that we’re poles apart, I fret, worry, am anxious, A LOT! Worrying or being fretful is not having peace of mind due to something (s). Its being troubled and depressed and doubting God eventually. I realized this pattern and was done, through, finito!! I tried to forget how much of a mess i am but seeing that I live with me, its hard to do that. I even prayed to God to help me see just the good and perfect side of me but we’re still here. That’s why what Heather posted gave me so much life. God’s grace is sufficient for me. He always surpasses my expectations. My expectation could be that I’ll some day be like David but with God, I become the best version of me (who won’t kill Uriah and take on his wife. No shade David). I won’t ever “arrive” like Heather put it. I used to tell myself that when I had some things or got to a certain age I would, but that did not happen so I fret that time is being wasted and I have not arrived yet. I fret about time the most but then I remember that God is never late nor is He too early, He is always on time. I fret about what to wear but the bible has told me not to. The truth of the matter is that we’re all not perfect people in that we fear and we worry, we have insecurities, we don’t have it all together and we’re not good enough for God and the devil keeps reminding us about this. However think about this, if we were so fresh and fly, we won’t feel like we need Jesus.  Our weaknesses show us that we are made perfect in Christ. Andrew Wommack said that the first time he was on tv, he watched the episode and was so disappointed and called God out on it. Like why did God tell him to start tv shows if He knew he was this bad at it. He hadn’t finished calling God out when he received a call from a friend about how great he was on tv. Apparently, he was the only one who thought he was awful and then he realized that God’s strength is perfected in his weaknesses. We do our best and wherever we stop is where God takes over. That’s grace. Grace fills the gap of where we are and where God wants us to be. God is so amazing. He’s awesome. So today I’m celebrating that I’m not Davida because I don’t want to have it all put together and forget that I need God. Once I have grown to the level of never forgetting that I need God (never forgetting to pray before I eat), then I can be like Davida, actually be better. To be honest, I just want to be who God wants me to be because that way I know I’m fine and I’m making Him proud. I really want God to call me a girl after His own heart. Is that what you want as well?

Happy National Thorn in the Flesh Day Guys!!! Sorry for not posting at all last week. Very long week I had. This week will be better by God’s grace don’t worry and I have many things to share. What thorn in the flesh are you shaming? I’d love to read from you.

P.s always remember that a rose is not a rose without its thorns. I like to think that roses have thorns because they are so special. God didn’t want people plucking out roses anyhow so He gave the roses thorns to give the pluckers a tough time. What do you think?

Abba

This song ehn, I didn’t really fancy it at first but after being forced to listen to it a couple of times, I fell in love. Its by Jonathan David and Melissa Helser and its called Abba (duh) meaning father. There’s a little story before the song starts. Enjoy!!

You’re more real than
The ground I’m standing on
You’re more real than
The wind in my lungs

Your thoughts define me
You’re inside me
You’re my reality

Abba, I belong to You
Abba, I belong to You

You’re closer than the
Skin on my bones
You’re closer than the
Song on my tongue

Your thoughts define me
You’re inside me
You’re my reality

Abba, I belong to You
Abba, I belong to You
Abba, I belong to You
Abba

Very very simple song. Download it here.

What song topped your playlist this week? Btw, if you are looking for good songs to donload, go to lifegiva.com. Their radio comes on automatically and they play good songs on there. Thank me later!

Love and light Phos fam!! 

Horrible Bosses. 

So like I said, I started interning a few weeks ago and I understand now what people mean when they say they have horrible bosses or that they hate their jobs or that their jobs rule over their lives. It’s a common practice actually and it creeps up on you. I’ll give you the advice I always give myself. The purpose of our existence is to glorify God and we do this by fulfilling the plans He has for us that are of good and not evil to give us a future and a hope. We know these plans by walking in the Spirit. Or being led by the spirit sooooooooo we really should not be involved in anything that isn’t given to us by God. That’s why some people are stuck with jobs they hate or horrible bosses. God is trying to chase you to where he wants you to be. You can’t know this though until you ask Him. There’s also another category of people that God is trying to prune, that’s my category and so we’re stuck with horrible bosses. Me personally, He’s trying to show me that I don’t know it all. It’s sad but when there’s a new adjustment in my life I forget I have to lay it down before God’s feet. I pray before I get the thing, and I thank God once I get it, and begin carrying it on top of my head like I can do it all myself and I end up messing up.  So I’m relearning that. And as I relearn, I hate the job less. I’m beginning to like it sef. I’m also learning humility. Humility is seeing yourself as God sees you – not more, not less so I don’t let people rubbish me but I’m not rude oooooo. Don’t go and say you learnt to be rude from here. For some it’s a case of started from the bottom now we’re here. It’s a case of not despising little beginnings. I think that’s my case too. Ultimately, everything we’re going through now is pruning for the future. But as many that are led by the Spirit are the sons of God so your pruning is different from the person next to you. Being led by the Spirit of God is the key thing here today. Cast all your cares, all your dreams, all your plans, your blessings, upon Him because He cares for you (Phos Translation).

Funny enough since Sunday I’ve been seeing posts on dying to self and yesterday this verse crowned it up. It was said by John the Baptist but we should be able to say it of ourselves too. 

This is the assigned moment for him to move into the center, while I slip off to the sidelines. “The One who comes from above is head and shoulders over other messengers from God. The earthborn is earthbound and speaks earth language; the heavenborn is in a league of his own.

John 3:30-31 MSG

Have an amazziiinngggg rest of the week you guys. Don’t forget to put it all before God. 

Made a way

The way of a fool is right in his own eyes, But he who heeds counsel is wise (Proverbs 12:15 NKJV)

Yessss!! You got it right!! Travis Greene’s made a way is the song of the week. I feel Saturdays are more ideal to put up the song of the week post since it marks the end of the week. Travis Greene has a very big fan base in Nigeria. Everyone has heard of him and even if they haven’t, they’ve heard of his songs or at least, song – intentional. I think he has an amazing voice and I really like the lyrics to made a way. The lyrics….

Made a way
Don’t know how but you did it
Made a way
Standing here not knowing how we’ll get through this test
But holding onto faith you know best
Nothing can catch you by surprise
You’ve got this figured out and you’re watching us now
But when it looks as if we can’t win
You wrap us in your arm and step in
And everything we need you supply
You got this in control
And now we know that

You made a way
When our backs were against the wall
And it looked as if it was over
You made a way
And we’re standing here
Only because you made a way
You made a way

Now we’re here
Looking back on where we come from
Because of you and nothing we’ve done
To deserve the love and mercy you’ve shown
But your grace was strong enough to pick us up

And you made a way
When our backs were against the wall
And it looked as if it was over
You made a way
And we’re standing here
Only because you made a way [x2]

You move mountains
You cause walls to fall
With your power
You perform miracles
There is nothing that’s impossible
And we’re standing here
Only because you made a way

You made a way [x4]

Don’t know how but you did it
Made a way
Don’t know how but you did it
Made a way

Don’t know how but you did it [x4]

Don’t know why but I’m grateful [x4]

Don’t know how but I’m grateful

And we’re standing here
Only because you made
And we’re standing here
Only because you made a way
And we’re standing here
Only because you made

You move mountain [x4]

You cause walls to fall [x4]

You cause chains to break [x4]

Giants fall [x4]

‘Cause you move mountain
You move mountain
And everything is easy for you
‘Cause you move mountain
Yes you move mountain

Mountains are moving [x4]

Strong holds are breaking [x4]

‘Cause you move mountain
You cause walls to fall

With your power [x4]

You perform miracles [x4]

You probably already have this song on your playlist but if you don’t, download it here.

Okay so fun fact time. Did you know that Travis is a pastor as well as a musician? Did you also know that he was pronounced dead twice before entering kindergarten? Know more about Travis from his website and download more of his songs. He’s amazing. Do you guys know Folabi Nuel? He’s a musician as well and his style of music reminds me of Travis Greene’s. I have his cd and he’s amazing. You can download the Good God album on his soundcloud. You’ll be blessed. Did I mention he’s Nigerian? What song topped your playlist this week and how did your week go? Tell me all about it I’d love to hear.

Peace

Yesterday, I went for a program that talked about dying to self. They spoke about dying to self in ways I had never looked at. It was really an amazing time in the presence of God. We’ve talked about dying to self before and we defined it as surrendering to God. A new way to put it as I learnt yesterday, is to fall at the feet of Jesus. To see only Him. It’s to know that God lives inside of us seeing what we see, hearing what we hear, eating what we eat, touching what we touch, smelling what we smell. This got me thinking about music. Anytime I’m listening and dancing to Shakitibobo I’m taking God with me. Have you people ever thought of it this way? It’s quite deep but it’s made me more conscious. Dying to self is a conscious effort. You willingly let go of your will, plans, dreams, you’re willing to do whatever God wants. I also learnt that God can take us through one way then when we’re feeling like we’ve finally made it, He’ll tell us wehdon sir, oya stop, turn, and we have to turn. I’m so excited as I’m writing this. The walk with Jesus sounds exciting. No one knows where He’s taking them today or tomorrow or next week. So it’s living knowing that you’re not living. TY Bello made us do this exercise. She told us to sing ‘Obanlaanu’ until we’re out of breath and where we stop, we should know that’s where God will pick up. So despite the fact that God made me for a purpose, He also made me to help me fulfill that purpose. He has a plan, a blueprint, and even if we make a mess, He’s able to turn it to a message if we go back to Him (I learnt this punchline yesterday). And if we truly are in Christ, abiding in Him, dying to self, His thoughts towards us will be our thoughts towards ourselves. We’ll be in sync. Do you get? 

Letting go and letting God is the hardest part of this walk with God that’s why people, even me, still have issues with fasting. That’s a story for another day anyways. But once we’re able to daily take up our cross, die to self, and follow God, we walk in the Spirit by faith, that is trusting God with all of our hearts and leaning not on our own understanding, acknowledging Him in all our ways and being sure that He’ll direct our paths. This doesn’t say He’ll make the path smooth, but He’ll direct us. Meaning the path might be smooth sometimes, other times, not so much but we have confidence that we’re good. That He’s got us because He’ll direct our paths. This is a lot to swallow. But when we’ve gotten this, swallowed this hard knot, we’ll find that we’ll be so filled with peace no matter the circumstance we find ourselves in. This series started because of the promises of God towards us in the Bible so it sounds as though when one walks with God everything is all good and dandy. Don’t get me wrong, it is! But some people have hard purposes. Jesus’ purpose was to die. Stephen walked in the Spirit and paid with his life. These cases ended in death and not very good deaths for that matter yet they fulfilled purpose that’s why they were able to pray for their persecutors. Dying to self is not only walking with God when all is good and dandy, it’s walking with God even when he makes you a sacrifice. But don’t worry, this earth is just a temporary home and death will always occur. So just have peace because blessed are those who are persecuted for righteousness sake, for theirs is the kingdom of heaven. This plenty English is summed up in this verse

“I have told you these things, so that in me you may have peace. In this world you will have trouble. But take heart! I have overcome the world.”

John 16:33 NIV

The hymn we sang today in my open heaven devotional was “what a friend we have in Jesus”. It says whatever the situation, take it all to God in prayer and we know that when we do this, the peace of God which passeth all understanding will be yours (Philippians 4:6-7). So if you’ve read this blog post and you’re still struggling with dying to self for whatever reason, you’ve honestly tried, take it to the Lord in prayer. You can’t do it on your own or if you think you’ve surrendered all but are still fretting about stuff, this blog post is a reassurance to you that as long as you’re walking in purpose, all things will walk together for your good. I’m sure knowing this will give you peace. Have a blessed week. 

P. S: today in church my pastor talked about repentance being a change in belief, not character, but a change in character is the fruit of repentance. I leave you with these words. Have you really repented? Has your mindset changed or just your behaviour? Shalom (Shalom means peace)! 

Since Your Love

For all who are led by the Spirit of God are children of God.

Romans 8:14 (NLT)

I found this song on Sunday on Africanism Cosmopolitan and its been playing ever since. I have this on and off love for bands but i really truly like the instrumentals in this song. The words of the song spoke to me. I was trying to understand myself.You know, we learn new things everyday and I was trying to understand why today I didn’t like sharwama and tomorrow I loved it. Yes, this little thing was frustrating me and the wordings of this song gave me so much life. It doesn’t matter if i’m sharwama loving or not as long as I’m in Him. So now, when I’m asked who I am, I know exactly who. I am the righteousness of Christ Jesus who sometimes loves sharwama and sometimes does not. But it does not matter because In Him I have my being, He’s my breath, my life, my everything and I was made by Him for Him. What I eat does not matter as long as Jesus is at the center of my life. A lot of time we meet small distractions that the devil turns to a big deal. The devil is very wicked. This song just reminded me of all that matters.The song is by United Pursuit ft Brandon Hampton (the song is actually playing as I’m typing this). The lyrics?

You are the light  
Song of my life
You always lead me
You are the voice inside

You are my love
No one before you
All that I am 
Points to You

And I was made by you
I was made for you
I am unfulfilled without full communion

You are the light
Song of my life
You always lead me
You are the voice inside

You are my love
No one before you
All that I am
Longs For You

And I was made by you
I was made for you
I am unfulfilled without full communion

I was made by you
And I was made for you
I am unfulfilled without full communion 

Since your love got a hold of me
Since your love got a hold of me
I’m a new creation
I’m forever changed

[Repeat 3x]

I was made by you
I was made for you
I am unfulfilled without full communion

In you, is all I need
You’re my breath, you’re my life, you’re my everything
[Repeat 11x]

My favorite part of the song is that “Since your love got a hold of me” part (it just started playing). This song just gets me really excited. I hope it blesses you as much as it blessed me. God bless you people.

Download the song here

P.S: Speaking of things that excite me, the verse of the month really pumps me. Check it out – Titus 2:7-8. The verse in the Amplified version or the Message translation is a pump.

P.p.s:This is why we are to watch what it is that we watch, listen to and all. The devil uses every opportunity he has to get to us. We should do everything with the leading of the spirit because somethings don’t seem harmful but are killers. When we do things by the leading of the Spirit, we avoid harm and we always get involved with things that give life.

Phos-Faith

The fundamental fact of existence is that this trust in God, this faith, is the firm foundation under everything that makes life worth living. It’s our handle on what we can’t see. The act of faith is what distinguished our ancestors, set them above the crowd. By faith, we see the world called into existence by God’s word, what we see created by what we don’t see. By an act of faith, Abel brought a better sacrifice to God than Cain. It was what he believed , not what he brought , that made the difference. That’s what God noticed and approved as righteous. After all these centuries, that belief continues to catch our notice. By an act of faith, Enoch skipped death completely. “They looked all over and couldn’t find him because God had taken him.” We know on the basis of reliable testimony that before he was taken “he pleased God.” It’s impossible to please God apart from faith. And why? Because anyone who wants to approach God must believe both that he exists and that he cares enough to respond to those who seek him. By faith, Noah built a ship in the middle of dry land. He was warned about something he couldn’t see, and acted on what he was told. The result? His family was saved. His act of faith drew a sharp line between the evil of the unbelieving world and the rightness of the believing world. As a result, Noah became intimate with God. By an act of faith, Abraham said yes to God’s call to travel to an unknown place that would become his home. When he left he had no idea where he was going. By an act of faith he lived in the country promised him, lived as a stranger camping in tents. Isaac and Jacob did the same, living under the same promise. Abraham did it by keeping his eye on an unseen city with real, eternal foundations—the City designed and built by God. By faith, barren Sarah was able to become pregnant, old woman as she was at the time, because she believed the One who made a promise would do what he said. That’s how it happened that from one man’s dead and shriveled loins there are now people numbering into the millions. Each one of these people of faith died not yet having in hand what was promised, but still believing. How did they do it? They saw it way off in the distance, waved their greeting, and accepted the fact that they were transients in this world. People who live this way make it plain that they are looking for their true home. If they were homesick for the old country, they could have gone back any time they wanted. But they were after a far better country than that— heaven country. You can see why God is so proud of them, and has a City waiting for them. By faith, Abraham, at the time of testing, offered Isaac back to God. Acting in faith, he was as ready to return the promised son, his only son, as he had been to receive him—and this after he had already been told, “Your descendants shall come from Isaac.” Abraham figured that if God wanted to, he could raise the dead. In a sense, that’s what happened when he received Isaac back, alive from off the altar. By an act of faith, Isaac reached into the future as he blessed Jacob and Esau. By an act of faith, Jacob on his deathbed blessed each of Joseph’s sons in turn, blessing them with God’s blessing, not his own—as he bowed worshipfully upon his staff. By an act of faith, Joseph, while dying, prophesied the exodus of Israel, and made arrangements for his own burial. By an act of faith, Moses’ parents hid him away for three months after his birth. They saw the child’s beauty, and they braved the king’s decree. By faith, Moses, when grown, refused the privileges of the Egyptian royal house. He chose a hard life with God’s people rather than an opportunistic soft life of sin with the oppressors. He valued suffering in the Messiah’s camp far greater than Egyptian wealth because he was looking ahead, anticipating the payoff. By an act of faith, he turned his heel on Egypt, indifferent to the king’s blind rage. He had his eye on the One no eye can see, and kept right on going. By an act of faith, he kept the Passover Feast and sprinkled Passover blood on each house so that the destroyer of the firstborn wouldn’t touch them. By an act of faith, Israel walked through the Red Sea on dry ground. The Egyptians tried it and drowned. By faith, the Israelites marched around the walls of Jericho for seven days, and the walls fell flat. By an act of faith, Rahab, the Jericho harlot, welcomed the spies and escaped the destruction that came on those who refused to trust God. I could go on and on, but I’ve run out of time. There are so many more—Gideon, Barak, Samson, Jephthah, David, Samuel, the prophets. . . . Through acts of faith, they toppled kingdoms, made justice work, took the promises for themselves. They were protected from lions, fires, and sword thrusts, turned disadvantage to advantage, won battles, routed alien armies. Women received their loved ones back from the dead. There were those who, under torture, refused to give in and go free, preferring something better: resurrection. Others braved abuse and whips, and, yes, chains and dungeons. We have stories of those who were stoned, sawed in two, murdered in cold blood; stories of vagrants wandering the earth in animal skins, homeless, friendless, powerless—the world didn’t deserve them!—making their way as best they could on the cruel edges of the world. Not one of these people, even though their lives of faith were exemplary, got their hands on what was promised. God had a better plan for us: that their faith and our faith would come together to make one completed whole, their lives of faith not complete apart from ours.

Hebrews 11:1‭-‬40 MSG

I had a discussion about faith with someone this past week. Two weeks ago, there was this heated argument about if faith alone can take one to heaven and some people said it can, some people said it can’t. We realized in the end that we were all saying the same thing but our definitions of faith differed. Some people view faith as believing that God so loved the world and sent His only begotten son that whosoever beliveth in Him shall not die but have everlasting life. While some say it’s not. I was among the former set until I read Hebrews 11 earlier today. All these people were said to have faith because they believed God’s promises and obeyed Him even when it did not look like the promise was going to be fulfilled. As a matter of fact it says that a lot of them did not see the fulfillment of the promise yet they did whatever God told them to do. So faith is not just believing, it’s obeying the leading or the guidance of God who speaks to us through the Spirit. Inherently, faith is walking in the Spirit. So yes, when Romans 5:1 says we’re justified by faith, it means just that. And when Ephesians 2:8 says by grace we’ve been saved by faith it’s not mistaking. 

However, Phillipians 2:12 says we should work out our salvation with fear and trembling. This means that just because we are very faithful today doesn’t mean we’ll be faithful all our lives. The devil is out there looking for who he may devour and we wrestle not against flesh but against principalities and powers. I read somewhere that since faith is not as a result of reality, i.e. none of the five senses can prove faith, the devil uses the five senses to disprove it. The book gave an example concerning the first sin about how Eve heard the voice of the serpent, looked and saw the fruit, touched it, tasted it and smelt it. Sometimes it’s not as straightforward as that. It could be like the testimony I shared last week where the devil just puts doubt in your head that you’re not good enough. Let me at this juncture mention that fear which is a by product of doubt, is the opposite of faith. God has told me no weapon formed against me shall prosper so why am I worried that some people are trying to do me evil? One thing I always say that I learnt from Joseph is that “they meant it for bad but God meant it for good” saying. So even if it seems like the enemy is winning, he’s really not. There’s a good coming out. An overwhelming good because God values His word above His name so He’ll fulfill His word concerning you. Do you get it? However this is easier said than done and at times it takes a few days to realize the attack of the devil. This is why 2 Corinthians13:5-7 says “Test yourselves to make sure you are solid in the faith. Don’t drift along taking everything for granted. Give yourselves regular checkups. You need firsthand evidence, not mere hearsay, that Jesus Christ is in you. Test it out. If you fail the test, do something about it.”

John 15:5-6 says “I am the Vine, you are the branches. When you’re joined with me and I with you, the relation intimate and organic, the harvest is sure to be abundant. Separated, you can’t produce a thing. Anyone who separates from me is deadwood, gathered up and thrown on the bonfire.”

Once you are in Christ, you hear fruits, once fruits are no longer being borne, you’re no longer in Christ and will be cut off or pruned. Once your faith no longer produces the fruits of the spirit in Galatians 5:22-23,it means it’s producing fruits of the flesh, Galatians 5:19-21, which means that your faith has been compromised. That’s how I check to see that I’m still in the faith. After this check, if I notice my faith is wavering, I go back to the word of God. After all, faith comes by hearing the word of God (Rom. 10:17). Checking the amour of God, the sword is the Word of God and that is the only mechanism of attack we have. So those memory verse we were taught in children’s church are actually useful. They are what we use to tell the devil off. We use it to show him that he’s a liar. From Tuesday, I’ll be starting each post with a bible verse. That’s how I found some of my favorite bible verses and I pray these verses minister to you and help you when fighting battles.

Before this post gets too long and unreadable, let me leave you with this. When you’re walking in faith, which is walking in the spirit, there is now no condemnation. For the law of the Spirit of life in Christ Jesus has made us free from the law of sin and death (Rom. 8:1-2). You therefore no longer have to do anything. Some people say they have no choice, well now you do. You are no longer slaves to sin. 

Mathematically,

The Bible says faith without works is dead. 
Faith – Works = Dead

Therefore, 

Faith = Works 

And we know that Faith = Walking in the Spirit

Therefore, 

Walking in the spirit = Work

So when the Bible says without faith it is impossible to please God,  it means without walking in the Spirit, its impossible to please God. Bill Hybels says Christianity is appreciating God for what He’s done,  that’s John 3:16, and not a list of things to do to get into Gods good books. When we think of this, we understand now why it’s impossible to please God without walking in the Spirit. You can’t know how to appreciate a person if you don’t know the person. Walking in the Spirit gives us that avenue to know God and then He can be appreciated. No wonder faith is the basis of our Salvation. And you can see now that the work meant by “faith without works is dead” does not mean just being a worker or going on mission trips, you know, let everyone see that you’re on fire for God meanwhile you’re really not on fire in your walk with the Spirit. Its very essential to walk in the Spirit guys. This cannot be stressed enough and something I’ve learnt is that God’s will for each person is different so we cannot judge.We cannot hear what God is telling the other person so don’t be quick to judge, unless the person is evidently showing the fruits of the flesh. Even then, do not judge, Jesus is the judge, only correct in love.

What group of people are you? Do you believe that just believing takes one to heaven or walking in the Spirit does? If you believe in the former was this post able to change your mind? For more about faith, you can read the book of Romans. Should we do a Romans study? Tell me your thoughts.

P.s: Phos-faith was to be this blog’s original name but the email address was already taken. Do you prefer Phos Faith to Phos reflections. The story behind Phos Faith is that we are to be the light of the world but its impossible to do that without faith. While the story behind Phos reflections is that we are to walk with God, receive His light and be reflections of His light to the world. Yes, my favorite analogy of we Christians is that of being the light. So which do you prefer?

P.p.s: I am not changing the name of the blog. I just want to hear your thoughts.